I'm such a fool

Today, when I got home I got a big news. Its about one of my cat. Today is two of my cats' birthday and I want to celebrate it by spending my time with them. But I got news saying that one of them is dead. I felt really terrible coz I don't spend much time with him and now that he's dead I'm gonna miss him so much. Spy, I'm sorry coz I don't spend your last day with you and I love you so much boy. Seriously I am.